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08:42 am
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Spider men
Hey there!
Tonight, I've been having a really terrible dream and I think that maybe it helps if I write it out.
I was going to go somewhere with two boys, brothers. One about 10 years or 12 and the other one... Let's say, 8 or something. I don't know their names, but they're awfully cute. (And the older one reminds me very much of a classmate I had in elementary school. Man, was I crushing on that guy.)
Anyway, it was a single horror. First, the trains were awful and weird and you had no seats but just lay under a kind of narrow ceiling that was directly over the train's floor. Hard to describe but, believe me, I was getting dyspnea just looking at it.
In the end, we somehow ended up NOT going by train and we went to an old store hall (it seemed) with many different, rather dark and dusty rooms. Somehow, the older one was fed up suddenly and ran away and I was stuck with searching for the smaller one. I found him in a book-storing room. Ah, was I tempted to just nick some manga XP But that's not important. The small guy was crying and he was very afraid. Now we're getting to the scary bits.
The thing is, the dream is some kind of continuation to another one. (At least I'm quite sure that I've been dreaming about the whole thing already.) And in that one, there were "Spinnenmänner", "spider men" after us. They belong to the most fearful things I can imagine. They're tall, two and a half meters at least, and thin. Like, extremely thin. Matchstick men. They're sent by someone, but I don't know who - they don't speak, they're always soundless and mute, and they can't hear. They never run, but they follow you slowly and steadily. They are very strong and often try to press through doors. They can't open locks or anything like that, if you lock your door, they can't enter there. But they can always just find some other window or less sturdy surface that they will try to get through. And they will.
They also have no faces. Their heads are just as thin and high as the rest of them and their skin is greyish in their face, with some vaguely fungeous features. They wear old-fashioned velvet suits and coats, vests and shirts. Victorian. That stuff.
They seem to be after the boys' father who's had something to do with time-travelling business. (Thursday Next, anyone?)
Anyway, I was calming the small boy down and gave him the speech about "Maybe there are no bad people" à la Clamp and I finally managed to get him home - which was pretty tricky because there were spider men patroulling in several places. There's also the fact that you don't know at all what they can do to you - you just know that it has to be the worst.
We went home to him and I sent him running to his house, then I encountered his dad. We talked somewhat, but then he suddenly shouted that there was a spider man and, really, pressed against the wall, there he was. We fled into the house and he came after us slowly, as they always do. The door was bending inside already with how he pressed against it (and you never see how they do it, they don't seem to do any real physical work except walking around) and only then did I remember to lock it. He stood outside for a while, but then he went away. But only, as the boys' dad remarked, "to find another entrance". And he will. Some window, or the chimney, or the cellar. He will get into they house somehow.
I wonder if I will see the boys again. This has already been a continuation to another dream - will I continue that story again? I don't know if I want to. I really like the boys and I want to protect them (mother insticts kicking in? *lol*) but I don't want to go through the horrors again those spider men bring me. Even now, I'm still turning around constantly for fear they might lumber behind the curtains or the doors when I open them or up the dark staircase.
Anyway, that's it. I have to go clean my room up now. See you!
~*Kjesta*~
Current Mood:  scared
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09:55 am
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Parties, Parks and Pokémon
Hey there!
Yesterday, I had a performance with my choir at our school at the abi feast. (The abitur is the highest graduation you can get in Germany without going to university and it is what qualifies you to go there.) We were singing a rather swingy version of P!NK's "Get the party started". And guess what? One of the best performances we ever had. We hadn't started singing for more than 5 seconds maybe and people were already beginning to clap and cheer and moving with the music. They were smiling and snapping their fingers and it was awesome. Afterwards, when we were down from the stage, we all had shaky knees. And I always thought that was meant to be figuratively!
Oh, and something more. Before the performance, we had some time to ourselves. Well, Carolin and I sat down at the piano and she played "Wind" by Naruto and we sung. I love singing that with her! And when we turned around after finishing, there were teachers and others in the room, having apparently listened to us!! I mean, they said it was great, but... AAAAH! I got such a shock when suddenly there were all those people XD
I had two really weird dreams, but I'm only gonna tell you one because the other is... random and boring. You see, I dreamt I was in a kind of amusement park with my class and I was in a group with... let's see, Daniel, Ingo and some girls, I guess. I'm not sure, don't remember many details. Anyway, it was really weird there, I saw security guards in black more than once and it seemed over-all rather fishy to me.
Then, when we went to the toilet, sometimes one or two of the boys just wouldn't come back. (Or girls, for that matter.) They reappeared later, though. Anyway, we were just walking down some road in there and I mentioned to Ingo that it was weird, wasn't it, that they suddenly vanished and stuff and that the park was kind of suspicious anyway, and he gestured me to be quiet. Seemed like I wasn't the only with these thoughts.
Well, then the coolest thing happened. I don't know how exactly or why they didn't stop us (it seemed to me like the park people would do pretty much everything to keep people inside the borders, or under control in general), but we just followed a way and left the park behind us, then it turned more like a path and finally we were walking across a grassy plan, the park far in the distance - it looked so small! And then we got over that hill and... wow. Just wow. It was sundown and there was this incredibly huge, beautiful lake and we all were totally amazed and mesmerized. It was so breathtakingly wonderful. We just stood there and drank the sight in like someone who'd just crawled through a desert on his fours. It's indescribable how fulfilling and good the moment was and, truth to be told, how I ache to dream of it again.
In hindsight, it still surprises me we weren't stopped or something. The security guards just weren't there suddenly. We walked back across some hills at the side - and there suddenly was a wall and a roof and we were walking through that landscape in some kind of room, along the wall, until we reached the park again. Then it was over.
I think I know now just why it was so very special to me - not only the moment at the lake in itself, but also that I actually dreamt it. You see, my dreams are always kind of anti-climactic. That is, if I dream I want to ride in the fields, I dream of the preparations for hours and hours, but just when it's about to start, it's over and I wake. It's like that every goddamn time! ARGH! So maybe reaching the real point in the whole story is what makes this even more great. (I feel like a freak, really.)
I also have a major Pokémon flash right now. Oh, how I love those games. (And the series is cute, too.) I'm so into Palletshipping. Gary/Ash, that is. I always thought it's some kind of crack-ish OTP, but looking at some really good essays about them convinced me they're actually kinda canon. (At least that they like each other a lot and are most important to each other, the latter is even stated explicitly in the series.) I had to laugh so hard when they were comparing the size of their Krabbies. Yeaaah, sure. It's called "subtext", guys, subtext, "sub" as in "subtle"! Not blatantly-obvious-in-your-face! Not that I'd complain, mind you.
But, awww, they're so cute together. By the way, did you notice this in an episode?:
(Brock turns blue, curls up in a ball and gets all moody whenever someone mentions Prof. Ivy)
Ash: Misty, what's up with him?
Misty: Oh, Ash! Brock liked Prof. Ivy.
Ash: But... I liked her too! =D
Misty: Ash... Sometimes you're just as bad as Gary.
Ash: *turns blue, curls up in a ball and gets all moody*
Mwahahaha. I love it when canon supports a pairing I like XD
Have I ever mentioned that I adore Gary's character design? I already loved it back in elementary school, when I got my first Pokémon game - Red. Aww. That was great times! I don't know, I think I'm a sucker for cute, snobby, pink-and-violet-wearing, ambitious little brats. (The pink Hawaiian shirt, anyone? I mean, come on. And he winks at Ash more than once and stuff. [NO, this is not my ZOMG!CANON-super evidence or something. I just think it's cute XD])
Just for fun, have a look at this: (I LOVE the song!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-hV-mT1nlJA
On a side note, I can't really understand all the Richie bashing. Why, guys? I mean, sure, he's some kind of Ash clone with his Pikachu and all, but he's also really cute. So, show some love for Richie, alright?
Oh, and one more thing: here's a site with some nice essays. Have a look at the "anime evidence" essay. It sure is no 100%-proof, but it's really well-thought and makes the pairing quite plausible in my opinion.
http://www.auroramoon.com/pallet/main2.html
While we're at it, does anyone have the songs "I hate everything about you" by Three Days Grace and "Geek in the Pink" by Jason Mraz? And "Toxic" by Britney Spears? I'm dying to get them but I have no Limewire or something. (I'm using my Dad's computer and he doesn't allow it *sigh*) If anyone here has them or the means to get them, would you do me the favour? Pleaaaase? Pretty please with sugar, cherries, cream, icing, cinnamon and a candy cane? I could give you some other songs for that, by Zwei, several soundtracks, something from "Decemberunderground" by AFI? (I'm really desperate *cough*)
~*Kjesta*~
PS: Okay, it's afternoon now and I just slept two hours and... dreamt that Ash pleaded that his mother would let him go to a party at Richie's in drag o.O" He said that it was a themed party and the Pokémon dressed as the trainers (Eevee in a violet pullover, anyone? *squee*) and vice versa.
Somehow that settled the argument, although I still don't get when Pikachu ever went around in high heels and frilly tops. Whatever. But Pikachu in a miniature of Ash's cap and jacket was the cutest thing. Ever.
Current Mood:  cheerful
Current Music: Geek in the pink - Jason Mraz
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10:12 pm
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Ranting, yay!
Hey there, me again!
So far I'm having no success in finding decent tubing and although I'm far from giving up (hooping is just too beautiful to stop!), I'm getting really frustrated. I mean, there has to be some way to get a hoop here in Germany! Or at least that damn tubing.
Today I went to the library to give back two drawing books - and one of it was one of those that weigh at least 6 pounds. I thought my arms'd dangle below my knees by the end of the day, it was SO heavy!
Anyway, I also borrowed (do you say that in English? When you take books or something from your library?) some CDs - Sugababes, Savage Garden, Jamiroquai, Dream Dance 20&27 (Dream House and Trance, that is) and one BRAVO. Not all my personal favourites, but i was searching for something with good beats for hooping. And, to my huge surprise, I adore the Sugababes CD o_O! "Follow me home" is awesome for hooping, gotta love it.
So I spent about two hours or such out on the terrace and hooped. Waist hooping feels like the most natural thing now and I love closing my eyes and just feeling the hoop spin. And yesterday it helped me when I had a stomach ache. Weeeh! My new magic bullet! XD
Anyway, I spent most of the time practising the lift. I can do it almost now, counter-clockwise with the right hand. It's still impossible to me the other way round, but I'll manage, I guess. Getting it down from above my head is easier and I can do it both ways. Oh well.
But I think I've gotten a blister on my pinky ;____; That's gonna hurt like hell tomorrow, doing the paper round. Grrr.
Concerning my fanfics, I'm working on a Bartimaeus fic, a small oneshot. Featuring hooping XD Bartimaeus is having a day off and a girl somehow gets him into hooping and he takes one hoop with him and has fun annoying the hell out of Nathaniel with it. Nothing great, but I like it. Oh, and "Air supply", a Bartimaeus/Ptolemy fic. My favourite dialogue?
"You don't like to kiss?" - "How am I supposed to know? It's just that for the life of me I can't figure out how cutting off each other's air supply works as a sign of affection for you humans." Mwaha.
Oh, and I'm struggling to finally complete chapter 4 of Scraps of Gold - it's been pretty much done for ages, but I'm having lots of trouble with one particular scene. It's so annoying! If any of my readers reads this, please accept my deepest apologies and have a cookie! *hands out cookies*
Well, have to go - love y'all!
~*Kjesta*~
Current Music: The Animal Song - Savage Garden
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10:37 pm
[Link] | Hi, Kjesta speaking!
Well, I have a new obsession:_hooping. As in, hula hooping. Just Saturday, I’ve become a total addict. I randomly bought a cheap Wave Hoop and started hooping on the terrace. Wondering if there was anything more interesting to do with the hoop, I googled a bit – and found the most beautiful things. Have a look at <url=http://youtube.com/watch?v=oiev55-mopc>”one of my favourite vids”</url> featuring Spiral, one of my greatest female role models in hooping. Isn’t she just gorgeous? And she makes is all look so easy.
By the end of Saturday, I managed to keep the hoop up for almost a whole minute. Yay.
Over the curse of Sunday, I managed to turn around myself (slowly) while hooping, and I could hoop in both directions, though counter-clockwise is still weaker with me. Then I hoped some more in the cellar and went to bed. And then I climbed out of bed again at 00:30am and went in the cellar again to hoop for another two or three hours. I just spun around myself, clockwise, counter-clockwise, turning with the hoop, against it, and at some point I was just moving across the (very very limited) room in circles and spirals. I had some music on, (mostly “Beep” by the Pussycat Dolls and “Stay Home” by Self) and just – well, kinda dance. I can’t dance, not really. But just whirling about with the sparkly pink hoop around my waist was such a divine feeling it’s beyond words. Seems freaky? Probably is, yeah. But it’s also some kind of meditative thing for me, so I don’t care.
In that night, I had only three hours of sleep and the next day was a long one because of many hours at school and such, but I was hyper and happy all day and couldn’t stop spazzing around because I couldn’t wait to get home and hoop again. Back home, I grabbed the hoop and did it for another few hours. I could move around quite okay now (only in spinning motions, mind you – walking straight with a hoop on your hip is difficult!) and just had fun with music.
The next day, my whole muscles in legs and abdomen were sore like hell, but it was worth it.
Unfortunately, we had to run 2 kilometres at school and I failed – I did the 2 kilometres and went straight through the first 1500 metres, but after that I stopped and walked normally three times. Which means an F to my teachers. But the heck did I care! After I could breathe somewhat again, I snatched a hoop (a flimsy edgy one – way too small and light!), took my music and spun about – I think I covered more ground than I had running before. To the left, to the right, a little jump… Ah, bliss. Suddenly, my sore muscles weren’t there anymore.
But the most amazing thing is that I got compliments for my hooping. WTF! Compliments for my freaky little obsession? I, who isn’t good at anything sportive? I, who’s much too chubby? I was very happy about it. It made me feel great and for once I feel like I have the support of my classmates. (They like my pictures for examples, but then again can’t understand how I spent hours drawing. Hm.) Not that I wouldn’t have continued without it, but it’s nice for a change. Pauline’s comment touched me a lot: “You looked like you were in your own little world. Like in trance or something.” And I think she expressed the closest what I felt while hooping.
After school, I hooped 15 minutes on the terrace and then went outside to a playground to continue with more space – a bunch of kids (maybe 3 to 6) turned up and were all over me. “Look here!” “Look, I can climb up here!” “Look, I can swing!” “Look again!” From four kids at the same time. Woah. I mean, they were cute, but watching them run from here to there 23 times in a row isn’t all that great when you’d much rather hoop. But I just can’t say no to nice kids. Damn!
Anyway, it started to rain soon and I went home again and did some hooping in the cellar. I could hoop with the neck now and from there transfer it up to above my head and from there down to my waist again. Now I just have to figure out how to get it from my waist to the neck XD Skipping is also in it now and when my hoop slides down do my hips, I can shimmy it up again 90% of the time. Haha – Pauline also said I had a hip action/gyration like hell. It’s not that, it’s just that I have to push the hoop up with my hip half of the time XD
Today, I had to do the paper round, but hoped a little in the (very wet) backyard. Now I can do the neck -> above head -> waist transition quite okay clockwise and counter-clockwise alike. The basic pop up, too.
I have a hard time getting a decent hoop, though. I’d make one myself if I had no problems getting the tubing for it in less than a 50m roll for about 40€. That sucks! A lot. I’d order one from the US if it wasn’t so expensive! I mean, shipping it to Europe would cost a fortune that I don’t have. This makes me sad. There are so many things that I can’t do with a hoop that’s so small it doesn’t even reach my crotch instead of coming up to my waistline/boobies.
Having started out with a too small and too light hoop (i.e. my Wave Hoop) will make things easier when I have an adult-sized hoop because it’s much easier to handle than kids’ ones, but this really drags me down. I want to do shoulder hooping and cool tricks and just have fun! Now it’s still very limited, although it’s fun nonetheless. If anyone from Germany reads this and would take a hoop from me for some money, I’d buy the huge roll of tubing and sell what I don’t need. Man.
Okay, have to go to bed. Love y’all!
~*Kjesta*~
Current Mood:  tired
Current Music: Stay Home - Self
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08:25 pm
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KuroFai crack!
Hey, it's me!
So, just like I threatened, I made a doujinshi and here it is XD I don't have a scanner and my copics hate me, so the quality is not really amazing, but anyway, here we go.
( Follow the cut to bad quality pics... You know you want to...> (just in case you can't read the text - partially because it isn't in the foto XD)
1 Fai: Aaaah...
2 F: Man, my fangs are so... *small*.
Arrow pointing at Kuro: random listener
3 Kuro: There, there... It's not about the size, it's about how you use it.
4 - (my brush slipped, so Fai's smirk is not as good as in the doodle *sigh*)
5 POUNCE!
<img src= )
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01:14 pm
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Nerd
Just as I gussed, literature nerd *smile* (But, WTF, the highest number of "books you've read in your whole life" was 60+?! What about 500+?! *feels discriminated*)
| What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Literature Nerd Does sitting by a nice cozy fire, with a cup of hot tea/chocolate, and a book you can read for hours even when your eyes grow red and dry and you look sort of scary sitting there with your insomniac appearance? Then you fit this category perfectly! You love the power of the written word and it's eloquence; and you may like to read/write poetry or novels. You contribute to the smart people of today's society, however you can probably be overly-critical of works.
It's okay. I understand. | | Social Nerd | | | Artistic Nerd | | | Musician | | | Drama Nerd | | | Anime Nerd | | | Gamer/Computer Nerd | | | Science/Math Nerd | | What Be Your Nerd Type?
Quizzes for MySpace |
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Three Days Grace - Let it die
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01:06 am
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Melancholy and holidays
Hey there!
Right now, I'm feeling a little messed up. While reading chapter 149 of TsubasaRC, I just suddenly started crying while looking at page 17. (I think it's 17. The one where Sakura tells Kuro and Syao to look after Fai.) Don't even really know why - I mean, I've seen the entire chapter already yesterday or such, when the mini scans leaked out.
Maybe it's because, right now, I pretty much worship (or is it whorship? *needs dictionary*) Sakura. It's funny how I hated her in the beginning and how much I've come to adore her now - for months, I was deadly sure I'd never-ever be able to like her even a little. And now? I wish I had my own Sakura. A person so forgiving and caring and warm as her, to embrace you when you're being emo and hate all the world.
At the moment I'm pissed off at quite a lot of things. At my parents (especially my mother - I often wonder why on earth I happen to have a person as a mother that I would not even waste a second thought on if I met her as a random stranger), a friend that I feel kinda left me in the lurch (I'm not going into detail because that person might be reading this) and just everything. I hate the fact that I've only been playing violin for half a year now and am not able to tune my violin properly myself, so now during the holidays - without violin lessons once a week - Charlie is all out of tune and practising is no fun. I also hate how I can't restrain myself when it comes down to buying stuff. I just buy and buy and buy and have the feeling that I just need what I want to buy at the moment and only a day or some later, I often regret my choice. Now I've run out of money and owe my parents almost 250€ (which is almost 335$) and everything sucks. I mean, I'll have paid it off in a few months (I earn about 100€ every month by doing a paper round) but it's depressing to know you won't be able to buy anything for that time.
Anyway, something's definitely good. It has to do with the money - more precisely, with what I bought. I ordered a whole bunch of clothes at Candy Violet for my lolita wardrobe. I'm planning to wear all lolita clothes when I'm on vacation in Summer and I'm so happy about it! Maybe it'll boost my confidence enough to wear that stuff at school or in the town as well when I'm back here. It's pathetic - I'm getting stares and nasty comments already, even without wearing special clothes or looking extraordinary. (At least I think so.) Why do I bother if there's some more comments based on my wardrobe? Stupid brain. Stupid me.
Well, maybe someone is (not XP) interested in what I bought, so here we go. It's always the black ones.
Skirt of Cards
Bustier of Cards
Shirt of Hearts/a>
Shirt of Spades
Shirt of Clubs
Shirt of Diamonds
Candy Crest Shirt
I hope it'll arrive soon... Yeah.
Love and cookies,
~*Kjesta*~
Current Mood: melancholy
Current Music: PCD - I don't need a man
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03:13 pm
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Petticoats and happiness
Hey there!
After some days of really nasty weather, it's really nice now. Not really sunny, but the sky is blue with clouds scattered all over it and there's a gentle wind blowing. Just like I love it. (Though it could be a little windier in my opinion.) I just went out to hang up my petticoat so it gets a little aired and such. I hope it'll also regain its fluff a little.
At the moment, I'm quite happy. I changed my eating habits quite a lot and have already lost about six pounds which is really great. Next week I'm also going to go swimming. Yay! I love swimming! It's the only sport I could do for hours and hours and hours.
In the summer, my family's going to go on holiday in Austria. It's the first time since about five years that we go on vacation together. That's sweet! I want to lose some more weight until then and add on my lolita wardrobe so I can wear mostly lolita clothes in Fiss. That'd be so great! Petticoats and lace and stockings and ribbons all day! Of course not on walking-tours and such, but you get the idea. I still have some way to go, though. Well, what do I need?
- bloomers (at least three pairs!)
- blouses (two short-sleeved ones and maybe one with long sleeves, already have one with long sleeves, but it's too warm for summer)
- skirts (two or three more, already have one)
- stockings
- another pair of shoes
- shirts (some cute t-shirts or general cutsews for the more casual look)
- sock stoppers
- accessoires
- a bag or two
- at least one more petticoat, white maybe
- maybe a jumperskirt as well
Well, quite a lot, isn't it? But I'll manage, I guess. I'm going to look for the shirts here in town, maybe I'll find something nice at Xanaka or Orsay. Skirts aren't too hard to make, I'll go buy fabric soon.
And there's the Contopia, a con which I want to go to. Chi kara Chouchou, a lable of some acquaintances from the lolita scene, are gonna be there and I want to buy the accessoires and a bag from them and maybe order one blouse or two.
I really hope I'll be able to finance it since I'm saving money for an own violin as well. Well, I also have birthday in summer, maybe my family can concur some of the less expensive stuff.
It'll be so great! I plan to take my sketchbook with me (not like I don't have it with me anytime, anyway) and, if there's nothing huge planned on a day, just sit down somewhere in the village and draw the buildings and wells and everything! That's going to be so much fun, sitting around there completely overdressed with bows and mary janes and petticoat and everything XD
Oh, and by the way - I'm searching for several songs for the "soundtrack" of my story, Scraps of Gold. If anyone has some of them, I'd be very very grateful if you could contact me!
Zwei - Shiroi Machi
The Veronicas - Mouth shut
The Veronicas - Did ya think
The Veronicas - I could get used to this
The Veronicas - Mother, mother
No doubt - In my head
No doubt - Running
Lifehouse - We'll never know
Three days grace - Let it die
Duran Duran - Ordinary world
Whoever could send them to me gets at least a dedication somewhere in the story! *offers stupid stuff* Because I really need those songs.
And while I'm at it, I just uploaded chapter two of the story. Lots of mushy and senseless stuff going on, but I hope someone bothers reading it, anyway. There you go:
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3400631/2/
Love you all!
~*Kjesta*~
Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: Shiroi Machi - Zwei
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10:11 pm
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Colors, colors everywhere
Hi there!
It's been quite a while, sorry! And I'm only here because I need a small pause from learning for my latin test this friday, I'm really stressed.
I just thought I could chatter a little about my synaesthetic experiences - they're not that spectacular since I don't project, but I like them well enough :) Maybe someone cares about my letters' colors - maybe not, but I'll write anyway ;P
A red
B yellow with a small orangey tint
C bright yellow with a greenish tint, very lemony
D green like grass
E a green very much like D
F blueish, tends to turn white in words (f (not the capital one) is the only letter I percept as cursive instead of block letters!)
G olive green
H the form is sort of brown, tends to turn white when spoken
I like lemon ice cream, strong yellow, tends to turn white in words (the lower case i is always white)
J yellow and a little like apple souce ("Hey you" by Shakira is a little like J! Same taste.)
K strong red, can't tell if it's darker or brighter than A though
L had a color once, but now it's an indistinct memory of white, glitter, blue and violet
M as capital letter it's bright and strong blue, as a lower case m it's more male and darker
N a beautiful grey, n is brighter and gets brighter if there are more than one next to each other
O weird-looking, it's often black in words (like "tokio" which is black and white) but the shape is white, green, black, red, flickering, opaque and transparent at the same time, it's kind of hanging in an infinite white, misty space
P also a weird one, a little like bright wood but has a different texture when spoken
Q is beautiful! made of dark turquoise glass, 3D, in front of a black background
R is a weird mix of red and grey
S kind of yellow, a little sandy (s is more yellow than S which is a little brownish sometimes)
T navy
U had a color once, now I only have a distinct feeling of darknes, indigo, black and blue
V is definitely a round, fluffy cloud of apricot glitter!
X a wonderful one! made of black glass with diamonds on the brims, 3D, white background
Y violet, y is more delicate than bold Y
Z kind of white and yellow at the edges, a little like a lightning
Most of my letters are male! I like them all very much.
I hope I haven't bored you too much with my rants about my letters ^^" If anyone is interested, though, I could write more about my numbers, music, etc. I don't expect it, though.
I have to get back to studying now - bleh! Stupid school.
Love, ~*Kjesta*~
Current Music: Buttons - Pussycat Dolls
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07:10 pm
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Violins and glittery powder
Hi there!
Today my violin lesson was a little earlier than usual. I totally screwed everything up ;____; I mean, I have problems concentrating on everything at the same time. If I concentrate on letting the bow slide over the strings the right way, I forget about my left hand. If I concentrate on my left hand, I tend to lose rhythm and suddenly end up at the frog insted of the tip of the bow >>" I can only hope it's like riding and someday I'll just do it automatically. (Watching everything at a time, I mean.)
But there was something nice, too. She said that I was really quick at placing my pinky alongside with the one finger beside it on the strings. Usually most students (so she said) stop at first to put the third finger on it while pausing and then the pinky. I don't know if this is something to be proud of, but I just decided it is.
Anyway, I went to a drug store to get some make-up - I'm 15, it's time I learn how to use that stuff. Unfortunately, I grabbed the wrong kind of powder. When I came home, the first thing I noticed was that it glittered. Yuck! Well, can't be helped. Bad luck.
I'm looking forwards to later this evening because maybe we'll eat McDonalds. I'm not that much into fast food, but I haven't eaten more than tomatoes and an apple today and I'd like to have something else than soup (again). Besides, I don't really have time to cook.
~*Kjesta*~
Current Mood:  busy
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07:57 pm
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Rain, Wolfs and Colorful Music
Hi there!
During the course of the last... about 6 or 7 days, I think, I watched the whole series ‘Wolf’s Rain’. And at the moment, I’m quite a little obsessed with it. I’m going to rant a little about it now, so everyone who doesn’t care or doesn’t want to be spoilered scrolls until the spoiler end warning in capslock.
SPOILER
Seriously, I cried throughout the end of episode 28 until about 5 minutes after the beginning of 30. Then my dad came and made me go away from the computer. I was pretty angry with him until the next day.
Poor Toboe! He’s been my favourite character all the time and then has to die in such a terrible way... But I’m glad that he wasn’t alone while dying. Quent was there to pet him and make him feel alright. I cried so much because I was so happy, sad and relieved about it.
Tsume staying with dead Toboe for some while was pure sugar. It made my heart ache with happiness and sorrow. I feel so bad for both of them... Maybe this is stupid fangirlish babbling, but I’m sure they were meant to be. Tsume told Toboe he wanted to take him to Paradise and asked Quent to watch over him. To hear Tsume say such things was... touching. And very final, in a way, because I’m sure he would have never said it while Toboe was still alive.
The ending is very sad... They all seem to be total strangers which makes me sad because maybe they’ll never meet or they aren’t wolves anymore or something... But Toboe wearing the pink beret was so cute! I nearly died of sugar overload. He really needs a certain big, bad biker to pick him up XD~
SPOILER END
I bought an MP3 player today! It cost 60€ and has 1GB space. Pretty much, I guess. I love it to bits! Now I can hear my beloved music while doing my paper round and stuff! Yay! At first I had problems changing the folder I was listening to, but my dad helped me and everything is fine. I put the music in five different folders:
Color Keys - For mixed music, from Evanescence to Backstreet Boys.
Red Folder - For Japanese music, mostly j-pop, j-rock and anime music that don’t have an own folder.
Common Sense - For rather instrumental and classical music like pieces for violin, piano, cello and stuff. There’s also my small collection of Bond music.
Tsubasa -RESERVoir CHRoNICLE- - As the name already says, this contains my favourite tracks from the CLAMP series. I love Yuki Kajiura-samas music!
Wolf’s Rain - For the music from the great series.
Right now I’m sitting here and listening to “Kopperia no hitsugi”, also by Yuki Kajiura. It’s so wonderfully curvy beautiful! Oh, something else is also great: “Canta per me” from YK also, it belongs to “Noir” too and is so heavy and golden, multi-layered and... woah. It’s overwhelmingly beautiful.
Yesterday, I had a full violin lesson (I usually take half ones because I can’t afford more)! Instead of just 20 minutes, I had 45 minutes. My teacher, Mrs Strohe, is really nice indeed.
I had to practice several quite easy melodies at home and then play them at the musical school. Then, my teacher joined me in playing and did the second voice. It sounded like real music! It was so wonderful! I could have played on forever! It also gave me one interesting synesthetic experience. I still don’t project, but it was like Mrs Strohe’s violin made a network of multi-colored strings that embedded Manon’s (I call my violin Manon, it’s a French girl name) strings of music. It was really weird and enticing at the same time.
Afterwards, my teacher complimented my sense of rhythm (she said that many pupils have great problems with it in the beginning when they play with someone else) and how I immediately corrected myself, or at least tried to, when I heard that Manon was not sounding right.
Well, that’s it for now, I guess. See you!
~*Kjesta*~
Current Mood:  contemplative
Current Music: "Kopperia no hitsugi" by Yuki Kajiura
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08:17 pm
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My thoughts on everything and nothing
So, after a long time finally another vital sign by me. Yes, I’m still alive!
First of all, at the moment I’m pretty much into GetBackers. Especially Ban/Ginji, they’re one of the most wonderful couples I know! And there are so many hints they could be canon, so... It makes me twice as happy.
I read a fic about Ban teaching Ginji how to play the violin but I have to say I’d expected it to be better... So I think I’ll stick to my idea and write an own fic about violin lessons. (I actually had the idea myself and then daya_chan told me there already is one with a similar concept.) I’m also just starting out with the violin so I hope I’ll be able to describe what it’s like to start out. If you do something for quite a while, you tend to forget how it’s been in the beginning.
Know what? Everyone always talks about how hard it’s to get a smooth tone from the violin if you just start. But to be honest, I didn’t have problems at all. I don’t mean to brag or something, don’t get me wrong. This probably sounds very arrogant, I know. But I’m just a little proud that I’m maybe not totally hopeless in something. It just makes me feel good for once that I don’t have real problems to get into something. I just take the bow and pull it over the strings (is pull the right term? Doesn’t sound right, but my English is letting me down right now...) and it sounds nice. Okay, I too make mistakes and I sometimes get the wrong tone but... All in all, it sounds pretty okay. (Again, please don’t take this as arrogant bragging, you violin players out there!)
Today, I bought a set with 12 tubes of acryl colors - it’s a really cheap one, only 2,99€. (About 3,80$.) Just for trying them out, I won’t spend a lot of money on colors I maybe won’t ever use properly. So far, I’m pretty sure water colors suit me much better. I like the way they look a lot more and I’m much better at handling them so... Yeah, I’m pretty relieved I didn’t buy expensive colors.
I think that’s pretty much it at the moment. I won’t bore you to tears with all the tiny problems I have and probably share with millions of teenagers in the whole world.
Oh, I forgot - tomorrow I and my family are going to Düsseldorf to buy clothes. I’ll look for things that I can wear with my new lolita stuff!
~*Kjesta*~
Current Music: "Duel" - Bond
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09:24 pm
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~* Violin *~
Heyho!
This day was plainly amazing... I had the feeling of living a completely different life, really. And it made me so happy! I went outside, meeting new people, learning new beautiful things. I can't wait for next Thursday!
But, first things first. This afternoon I was so excited! Fortunately I had some forums (fora?) to check on the internet and it didn't take that long until five o'clock. I finally could go! Short stop at my grandmother's paper shop and then to the bus stop. Okay, not very exciting at all, so I'll skip to music school.
The student before me was ill or something and I could go in earlier than expected. My teacher is so nice! She looks very nice, too. And her violin case is so beautiful! Dark green velveteen everywhere and pictures in the lid and, most of all, her violin itself. Maybe I'll gather the courage to someday ask her if I can take a photo of it, so I can draw it!
Well, she said she was quite impressed that I own my money for the lessons myself. I don't really understand how she is so fascinated by it - I mean, my parents can't afford it and I wish for it very much, so it's only natural to earn it yourself, isn't it? I am always surprised to see how others (especially other teenagers...) react when hearing about it. *shrugs*
Anyway, there was a little questioning about what I know about music theoretically. I still know the scale, I can differ some notes (I lack the knowledge of the English words, sorry!) and I've been searching the internet a little for info about violins. Oh well.
Then she played a little on her violin and explained to me some things about the sound and such. And, oh, it was so beautiful! Those wonderful, smooth, brown tones! I really had to hold back from saying how I love the colors. I want to someday do it too!
Then she showed me how to hold the violin and the bow. Woah, not as easy as it seems! Especially holding the bow. But she lauded how relaxed my fingers are. I bet that's from writing and drawing so much ^_~
That's also what I have to practise until next week. I already started a little and she showed me how I can practise at school with pencils. Teehee, now I have something to distract me with during boring lessons XD
I also promised to show her some pieces by Bond - she's only heard of them until now and is really interested in what they sound like. So, please, Nee-chan, if you read this: would you do me the favour to send me some of the songs on your computer? You have so many nice ones, could you pick a few to put a nice CD together? (Because I'd also like to listen to it for myself ;) )
Oh and I have to get a "Schulterstütze" because they somehow have to few at the music school. Mrs Strohe offered to look at home for another one of hers to lend me until I get one myself.
I have to go to bed now... I really look forward to phoning Nee-chan tomorrow. I miss the phoning quite a lot, but oh well... Not about to change now.
~*Kjesta*~
PS: I just notice that my writing style is really weird today - I hope you don't mind.
Current Mood:  apathetic
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02:14 pm
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*trembles with excitement*
Hi there!
Woah, you won't believe - just 20 minutes ago, I phoned my mum and she told me that I'm expected to turn up at the musical school tomorrow afternoon for my first violin lesson! Weeeeeh! Hyuuuu! Hanyaaaan! *insert random word of joyous excitement*
Waaaah, I'm so jazzed *skips up and down the house* What if I have absolutely no talent for musical stuff? I'm terribly afraid of that possibility ;_____;
But, oh well, I'm just starting out. Really, hold your thumbs for me, guys!
Of course there'll be a report about my experiences. (Stupid wording, I know.) XD
~*Kjesta*~
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07:29 pm
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Colors, colors everywhere...
Heyaho!
I got tagged by Nee-chan (what exactly does tagged mean, Nee~?) and now I have to write what I enjoy listening to most. Okay, seven the number is. And talk like Yoda I do XD Well, here we go:
1) Duel (Bond)
2) Tsumi to Batsu (Zwei)
3) Break the sword of justice (TRC-OST)
4) Ship of fools (TRC-OST)
5) Butterfly (Rajaton)
6) Bubblegum Dream (Zwei)
7) Hear our prayer (TRC-OST)
And if someone explains me how exactly tagging works/what it is, I'll tag seven other persons for sure XD
Nee-chan, I looked this up for you because I think you could like it! These are by Angelic Pretty:
 
There's also a Musical Notes collection by the brand Metamorphose. It's gorgeous! If you want to, I could look for them too for you.
Just today I decided to buy copic ciao markers - a 72er set for 175€ *dies* Fortunately I earn about 120€ a month by doing a paper round and I already have 30€ on my way to the set. I could almost have they money already but I put 100€ aside for my new shoes, accessories and a winter cape.
I also drew a picture this afternoon and I actually am pretty content with how it turned out. It's a girl in oldfashioned clothes sitting on the floor and holding an orb. (Ein Reichsapfel, das Wörterbuch gibt mir nur "orb" als Übersetzung.) There's a chandelier, a footstool with a shoe, a discarded shoe on the floor and a heavy curtain too. It looks a little empty but I have to work on my backgrounds anyway.
If anyone wants to see it, I could make a photo and post it here.
~*Kjesta*~
Current Location: Dad's laptop
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Duel - Bond
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03:41 pm
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I'm insane and I don't care XP
Woah, hey there!
Well, this is my first entry in my own journal. I don't really know what to write, nyo...
Yesterday I watched the final of a telenovela, Verliebt in Berlin ("in love in/at Berlin", it's a wordplay). Not that I'm a real fan or something (okay, I have the first 2 DVDs because the first episodes are kinda nice really) but it's become a habit to watch it with my granny in the evening and now of course I wanted to know whom she eventually marries. And? Well, David. Argh! Why David?! I mean, he's kinda cute and looks like le smex in person, but that stupid girl doesn't deserve him. Neither does she deserve Rokko. He's so funny and cute and caring and love's her sincerely for what she is but then, after he alrady said "Yes, I will" (don't know how it's translated to English correctly) at their marriage, she thinks it over and chooses David - gnarf! She just goes over to him and looks sad, gives him the ring and apologizes - then he leaves and that's it. WHAT? I mean, COME ON! He didn't deserve that. Just as I always said, he really needs a cute guy. Maybe he and Jürgen could make a couple and David gets Max ^-^ Or David and Rokko make a cute couple, too - but then Jürgen is alone *hmmm*
Anywho. I'm also totally into Lolita fashion at the moment. There are so many cute clothes and accessories I'd love to have! (And fit into >>")
These are by Angelic Pretty:
http://www.angelicpretty.com/shopping/jsk/62j-2214/red.jpg
http://www.angelicpretty.com/shopping/head/62kh-11063/red2.jpg (I've totally fallen in love with these bows - they're so beautiful ;/////;)
http://www.angelicpretty.com/shopping/socks/62ks-7123/blk2.jpg
http://www.angelicpretty.com/shopping/other/52g-9166/pnk01.jpg (neeeed that purse *drool*)
And these are by Baby, the stars shine bright - my overall favourite brand ever!
http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/cutsaw/130733/130733-n.jpg
http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/cutsaw/130737/130737-e.jpg
http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/jumper/130238/130238-w.jpg (this and the next are the same, just in different colors, and they're the most beautiful dresses I have every seen in my whole life */////*)
http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/jumper/130238/130238-p.jpg
http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/jumper/130219/130219-bw.jpg (Isn't this one cute? *brain is a puddle of goo on the floor*)
http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/onepiece/130318/130318-iv.jpg (The only thing I don't love that much about this one is the print which is too religious for my tastes)
http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/acce/130805/130805-sv.jpg (*is mute because of amazement*)
http://www.babyssb.co.jp/shopping/shoes/130970/130970-e.jpg (These shoes are teh love *____*)
Okay, enough ranting about stuff I'll never own XD
Well, that's it for now. Hope I didn't bore you too much. (Though I doubt anyone will read this anyway *shrugs*)
~*Kjesta*~
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08:43 pm
[Link] | Well, I finally figured out how to post here and now I can show you some more of my drawings and two drabbles I wrote. I also grant someone's quest (awfully sorry for forgetting the name - speak up, girl, if you're out there!) of drawing Fai with chopsticks.
( Follow the KuroFainess... )
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